Turbo Cancer: Day 138 - October 27, 2022
Talking Snakes
On this day, last year, my mom wrote:
Better day yesterday regarding stress. Pain pretty bad, but when I poop and take pain meds, it helps a lot. Still need suppository to poop. Dinner came in am. Jessica brought carrot salad in pm. She chats for a short while and goes. Perfect.
“If I really exist and am not a dream, I rest in God. Nothing can be without God.”
No human being is perfect. We all make mistakes. We all make poor choices. We all hurt people. We all hurt ourselves.
My mom was not perfect, but she did her best to be good.
Why are good people destined to suffer?
I am not the first to ask that question, and I will not be the last.
To me, it seems as if the answer went all the way back to the beginning. It goes back to the moment when Eve ate the apple.
Adam and Eve were children. They had a good, peaceful life in the garden. They had all of the comforts. Everything they needed was provided. Their only purpose was to wander happily, gazing upon the magnificent beauty that God had created. Life was easy.
They saw no monsters. They felt no fear.
Adam and Eve were free to experience every part of the garden, except one. Right in the center, there was a sacred tree. Hanging from its branches was one beautiful, perfect, round red apple. God had forbidden Adam and Eve from eating the apple, because it contained knowledge.
It contained awareness. Upon eating the apple, one’s eyes were opened. Upon eating the apple, one recognized evil.
One could see the monsters, who had been there all along.
God knew that the knowledge of good and evil would overwhelm Adam and Eve. He knew that their young brains would be traumatized. God loved his children, and wanted them to be innocent, safe, comfortable and happy. Like all good parents, God wanted to protect them from the suffering of this world.
With innocence comes naivete. There were snakes in the garden, but Adam and Eve were too immature to recognize malevolence.
Eve was still a child when she met the snake. The snake took advantage of her youth and ignorance. Poor Eve, who had never witnessed pain or suffering, knew nothing of danger. She was gullible.
Many of us have been gullible in the presence of snakes.
The trusting child, Eve, listened. She believed the words that he was saying.
He promised her that the apple would remove the mask that was covering her eyes. He hypnotized her with stories of wisdom and understanding. Eve believed that eating the apple of knowledge would open her up to a more beautiful and glorious world than that of the garden.
She followed the snake to the sacred tree. She reached out and plucked the apple from the sacred branch. Encouraged by the snake, she took a bite.
I think that, ultimately, Eve was right to choose knowledge. I think she was right to open her eyes and see both the misery and the joy of life on Earth. I think it is important to recognize the existence of both ultimate good and ultimate evil.
Eating the apple frees us from the mediocrity of an easy life. Those who choose not to eat remain childlike and dependent. Those who choose not to eat are easy prey.
In order to solve a problem, we must first recognize the problem. In order to fight evil, we must first recognize evil. In order to end human suffering, we must look directly at the cause of that suffering. We must eat the apple, and gaze upon the beast.
According to the National Cancer Institute, in 2018 there were eighteen million newly diagnosed cases of cancer with nine and a half million deaths. They estimate that by 2040 this number will increase to thirty million cases and sixteen million deaths.
In 2018 alone, six and a half billion American tax dollars were spent on cancer research. All of that money being spent, and both cancer diagnoses and deaths are on the rise? Does that make sense?
Does it make sense, when we realize that medical researchers, pharmaceutical companies, hospitals and doctors profit more from sick people than they do from the healthy?
Six and a half billion tax dollars plus the insurance payouts for eighteen million cancer patients equals…?
Cancer is a multi-trillion dollar industry. Cancer is one of the hundreds, or maybe thousands, of diseases caused by our modern, western culture and lifestyle. Perhaps we ought to gaze upon that.
For six months of turbo cancer treatment, my mom’s insurance was charged close to one million dollars. One million dollars went back into the system that made her sick in the first place. It is a godless system that runs on maliciousness and greed. It is a breeding ground for talking snakes.
A million dollars to fail! Did you ever wonder how much to be successful?
Its a cruel system, how many lives have been destroyed? How many?
I am so sorry.